Confession: I am a crier, and I not ashamed to admit it. I cry sometimes cry when I’m happy, when I’m sad, mad, stressed out, feeling the spirit or whatever. You name it, I probably have cried for it. I even cry in commercials sometimes...like that ‘Yes Virginia, there is a Santa Claus’ one. And you know what...I used to feel bad about it, but I don’t anymore! Sure sometimes it’s a bit inconvenient, but for the most part, it is an extremely effective release and it helps me to enjoy my life to the fullest and process the things I would like to improve upon....In fact, I think that if Freud knew me, he would say that it’s the perfect compromise between my superego and the id. Quite frankly, I think every once in a while, every girl just needs a good cry to get it all out!
The reason I bring this all up is because it has just been one of those weeks. Despite the fact that I have been super stressed with school and my hormones have been ALL over the place, a huge factor is that I miss my family and my home. It was Luke’s birthday yesterday, and as I cried about the fact that I have missed the last five years of it, my sweet patient husband said, “Well. Let’s make cake!” BRILLIANT I tell you! My tears quickly were wiped away and as my family celebrated with my Mom’s creative Harry Potter party, we had a Luke themed cake and I watched some Phineus & Ferb in his honor.
The reason I bring this all up is because it has just been one of those weeks. Despite the fact that I have been super stressed with school and my hormones have been ALL over the place, a huge factor is that I miss my family and my home. It was Luke’s birthday yesterday, and as I cried about the fact that I have missed the last five years of it, my sweet patient husband said, “Well. Let’s make cake!” BRILLIANT I tell you! My tears quickly were wiped away and as my family celebrated with my Mom’s creative Harry Potter party, we had a Luke themed cake and I watched some Phineus & Ferb in his honor.
To make me feel even better, the next day, Lester and I continued to enjoy ourselves with Steph and Tyler as did some good old fashioned bowling [and by old fashioned I mean with no bumpers!]. We packed a delicious picnic with homemade sandwiches, potato salad and key lime tarts for afterwards, and then finished by going to the dollar theater to watch the masterpiece that is Inception yet again. It was just what I needed.
And now, as I get ready to go to church tomorrow, I look forward to walking away from this week/weekend having gotten all my tears out and feeling recharged and ready to tackle a new week. I am very grateful Heavenly Father saw it fit to send my these tears and to be reflective in life...I think it is safe to say that I will make it at least till Thursday with no tears…well…starting Sunday after our we meet with our bishop and potentially have to speak or have a new calling in our ward that is!
Well, you brought tears to my eyes.
ReplyDeleteOh Julia...it is hard being away from family...but at least you have Lester....how were those key lime tarts?
ReplyDeleteBy the way..even when you are old like me you still miss family...and I don"t feel ashamed to cry either :)
ReplyDeleteI love that Lester is so sweet and thought to have you make a cake in Luke's honor. You've got a keeper with him!!!! Hope you have a better week. I promise, it does get easier being away from family. It just takes time. Try skyping. It's great. I wish I could have been with you this week. I'm always game for a good cry!
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