The Force Is With Me

OK this post was hard to name b/c there are so many options; like "Why I Know My Husband Loves Me" or "True Love" or "Nerd Alert" or "Best Day EVER" or "The Force is With Me." In the end, I just picked the Last One b/c it seemed to fit best.

As most of you know what with my last entry, things have been a little rough. The job market here in Rexburg is overly saturated, and although I will keep trying, most days this means while Lester is gone, I'm left with less then enough to do. Sometimes its hard, but it is slowly but surely starting to get better. Like today.

Lester happened to have a day off, with no school and no hospital shifts for once. So that in itself is a good day-but then we went to Walmart [who knew dreams could come true there!] and we saw signs for star wars stuff-saying that today of all days, all of them were coming out on blue ray. So while I'm thinking 'maybe if we save up I can get it for Christmas..' he holds it up and says, "Happy Early Birthday!" He knew I would want it that bad and so he'd been planning to get it for me. Which makes staying at home and cleaning, cooking, doing laundry, writing, submitting online job applications all while he's gone not seems so daunting anymore! HE IS THE BEST and HE KNOWS ME SO WELL!

While we walked out of the store with me holding my new 9 disk Star Wars set with over 40 hours of special features and 90 minutes of bloopers, it brought me back. Back to the days of eating nachos while watching A New Hope at Uncle Matt and Auntie Mayas, while I cried because my first crush was moving away. It brought me back to feelings of being a bratty hormonal teenager and thinking 'if Luke can handle Darth Vader being his Father, I can handle my dad grounding me!". It brought me back to when all my Hanaike cousins, Aunties and Uncles stood in line at the old Coronado theatre for hours waiting for the premier of the NEW star wars, dying of excitement. It brought me back to playing light saber wars with my very own Luke, and thinking how happy I was to have a brother. It brought me back to the times I tried to get Lester to sit and watch it with me, while he held my hand and I got over my crush on Hans Solo, b/c I had someone ten times better and cuter. So as stupid as this was, Star Wars and my amazing husband made everything better for the billionth time in my life, and I now feel more motivated and able to conquer this dark side of my life, just as the Jedi's did theirs.

Haha. I suppose now its out in the open what a closet nerd I am-but you know what. I don't care. I am who I am, and I am proud of that-may the force be with you guys as you conquer a new upcoming week.